Finneytown lost their homecoming. Awww. But it was quite an exciting game. Nail biter to the end. Well I saw Deb Bolig at the game (who's having twins again for Joan Lunden, and this news is out so I'm not leaking anything). And other people from my church. Also saw Eric Tarpoff and his wife. Eric's the person from Rough, where I love going. Where maybe someday I could work. (Please, God? Cross fingers? Maybe? Hint hint hint?) I'm still so excited to be going to Japan next week.


The following isn't going to make any sense so if you're most people you might save time and stop reading here. (OK I realize if you're most people you're NOT reading this blog, and not only that, you're not interested in the least.)

I really wish sometimes I could enter a private entry here that only I could see. Still part of the blog but just...private. Some stuff I can't share with everyone. Problems with Steve. Private hurts and feelings both regarding him and regarding other things. Some grief I have. Reasons I believe and know what I know but are too difficult to share with everyone. Stuff like this. How do I explain when I say as a mother I might be passable, but as a wife I totally suck and I know it. Anyway I journal this stuff privately, in my own little book. What good is it to put this out there where my kids would read it...no one else usually reads this junk but they could.

For anyone reading this: please do NOT try to defend me from me. Unless you're Virgi, you do NOT know why I'm saying these things. And if you're Vir, God is working on me with regard to 2 certain issues (well, just one issue, and 2 people) and is using certain events that I'm now ready for to "de-program" me so I will be more ready to be of use to God and people. It's a daily struggle and any day at any time I could give up. But I'm seeing rewards in both tangible and intangible ways. For the rest of you, sorry for being so cryptic. Nothing personal. Well, actually yes it is! Just nothing personal against YOU. :) Nothing that the world needs to know about- just me, God, and my best GF. OK? Thanks for understanding!